To be completely honest i had but so much years with my brother, while waiting the moments i had with him felt distant.
Suhail has been shot and is in critical condition
The night felt extremely long while waiting for him to come out of surgery
by the end of the night my brother had been dead, so much pain, anger, and confusion but in the end i was numb.
a funeral was held three days prior and due to religious purposes it was an open casket... seeing hes face made me break and shadder with realization of lost. For the past nights i had nightmares of his face in his casket, his lifeless body, i couldn't sleep with the light off.
i was struggling with school, failed, and tried to harm myself in multiple ways
eventually everything that happened in my life collided and i had to face the fact that we loose people.
I'VE BEEN BUILD AND HELP PUT TOGETHER BY OTHERS WHO STRUGGLE WITH LOST,IT GOES TO SHOW THAT EVERYTHING MIGHT NOT BE OKAY BUT AT LEAST IM UNDERSTOOD