In chapter 14, Holden is in his room in Edmont Hotel and the chapter starts with a flashback to a memory of Holden with his brother Allie. Holden is depressed and tries to talk with his dead brother.
Allie, go home and get your bike and meet me in front of Bobby Fallon's house.
What are we going to do, Bobby?
We can shoot something with our BB guns.
Can I join you?
No. You cannot, Allie.
After Holden recalls this memory of regret, Holden tries to find a way to comfort himself.
At last, I got into bed. I wish I could pray and feel better. Why can't I pray?
I may be kind of an atheist but I'm better than those annoying Disciples.
I love Jesus and that poor lunatic man, who lived in the tombs, more than those good for nothing Disciples.
Arthur told me that if I loved Jesus, I had to respect his choices about the Disciples.
Old Child was right about one thing, though. Although I love Jesus, it's a shame that I didn't got to church. It's because I had my reasons.
Arhut Child - Holden's religious friend from Whooton and he knows the Bible well.