I had to scroll back to find these texts so it could be a little accurate lol)
okay if I'm being honest, I don't care about you. don't be upset please. I don't want to be friends anymore.
no why do you care
but he never replied to me. I think that was his way of showing he was serious. I never saw him after that either.
I can tell something isn't alright because you are trying to ignore me. can you be honest with me?
April 22nd @ 4:30 P.M.
Hey why have you been ignoring me? are you okay? I'm confused why have you been so distant?
...are you being serious Julian?
I remember crying a lot that night because that's not the first time I have felt loss in my life but for some reason I felt like I have never experienced pain. This was indescribable pain. I vividly remember bawling my eyes off..I think the fact that he left and males alwasy leave is what hurts its like heartbreak but with a friendship I reminsied about us a lot and how he just left with no goodbye but just left
what did I do wrong..I am so confused. This is all my fault. i am so dumb why did I push someone away.
I cried for weeks...months..too much to even remember. My parents and siblings found out of course. It wasn't easy to hide veen though I wanted to. I was in too much pain I harmed myself at some point because my mindset allowed me to believe that the the only way through pain like this. I don't know why I thought it was smart even though it hurt way worse.